Plugged Into the Matrix

Whew! I survived the first week back into the Matrix!


Maternity leave ended a week ago and I have since been back to work. It is pretty hard leaving my baby and knowing that I am missing out on seeing everything she does in the day and having someone else other than me hold her. There are pros and cons going back to work, but I definitely have a greater respect of working moms that manage to balance both aspects of life, especially single moms! It definitely is hard and at times I just have to breathe and remind myself of the pros. It helps that Ryan is home with Em though, as that provides a sense of security to know that daddy is close by to her.


At the end of this week, it is easier to evaluate my return. The first day back to work started off okay since there was a curiosity to see if there were changes at work (since Sun was acquired by Oracle and the re-structuring has started). The changes mainly were HR related - training classes, IT stuff. Almost feels like going to a new job but with co-workers the same and the office the same. Of course, all I still talk about is Baby Em. I'm sure the conversations about the financial markets and politics will re-circulate around me at work soon, once I am more settled in.


Oh, and, just like most working moms and dads out there, my screensaver is now scrolling various photos of my baby girl. I always thought that was cheesy, but now I see why. I miss her at work and seeing those photos of her just puts a smile on my face as I work with a focus on what I do... is all for my baby girl. Same job, same routine, but different goals and perspectives now.